Hey guys, just going to share a bit of what's been on my mind lately ...
You know that thing you have in your life that you take for granted, and then when its gone, you realize how valuable and precious that thing was? ... well, thats kinda the emotions that im going through right now ... and the funny thing is that it is not a 'thing' that i am referring to ... its an actual person ...
Why didn't i express how i feel?
Why didn't i let her know that i care so much about her?
Why didn't i make an effort to be there for her?
Why am i such an awkward person when it comes to things like these?
I can't just tell her how i feel now, coz then it would just be awkward for the two of us. I don't want her feeling confused and upset and not knowing what to do with this information. All the times we had alone together or hanging out with friends, and still i didn't do much to show her how i really feel ....
It really hurts inside that i had my chance but i blew it due to my own selfish reasons and way of life. If only i did more back then ... if only i had the guts ... if only she could see me for who i really am ... then maybe we would've had a chance ....
I guess the only thing i can do now is wait, and pray that God's timing is the best for me. I just need to believe that He has my life planned out the way He wants to, and that i need to trust Him and follow His will ..... but it hurts to wait, it hurts to be patient .....
If we are meant to be together, then somehow, things will all work out in the end.
But for now, i just need to believe in Him, and trust that He will bring us together ...
If only ...
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